Since tomorrow will be about my mom, it seems fitting to devote a little time today to the mom that is me. I just unearthed this photo from what from seems like AGES ago, but was only February.
What it says to me is, "your baby is growing up." (Too fast.)
We hardly ever use the Ergo anymore. That thing was indispensable for a long time. Now, we just use it for hikes and she is worn on the back. This photo shows our use of the ergo in all its glory. I like the way Adam took it. Somehow it seems like he sneaked up on us and captured this moment. It is true that I was trying to hide in public, which is never an easy task, especially once you try to breastfeed. Suddenly droves of people appear and for some reason they all seem to notice when you lift your shirt up....
I've been a fairly anxious mom. Especially when June was smaller. It gets easier, and I relax. But the baby crying phases, the times when she just needs a nap and for that she needs her mommy, nothing better get in my way. It brings out the mama bear.
I'm happy for the days to get lighter, and for that to include my mothering and the stress and anxiety that came along with it. As June gets more capable, that seems to be happening naturally. Sometimes I wish I were more easy going from the get go. At others I just have to embrace that this is me, and it is how I manifest my love for my baby. I think it all strikes a balance.
Happy Mother's Day Eve!