I was talking to another mom today (yesterday?) about the moments in our lives when we really felt we were radiantly connected to our true selves. For her, it was a moment when she had let go of a long battle with illness and had an epiphany moment that she was no longer a sick person. I wish I could do her story justice here, but suffice to say when she told it I literally got chills that sent goosebumps down my arms.
For me, I've had a few of these self-defining moments. One of them was after completion of my big rooftop scene in Beat Angel. At that point in time I really truly felt that I was going to be an actress. Other times are not so easy to describe, but they are moments where you just feel connected. I also felt this way while living in San Juan, Puerto Rico. I felt it in a different way when I met Adam and knew he was the man for me.
The problem is, we also drift away from ourselves. How does this drift occur? Where do we go? And why? And damn it, can I get myself back?
And then I half-remembered a quote from long ago. That the moon is still the moon when dark as when full. I just have to wait a few revolutions is all. And that made me feel better.