Becoming "Mom"

I've been thinking a lot lately about how the mom I've become differs from the mom I've always thought I'd be.  I make different decisions than she does.  I am certainly more tired than her, and not quite as lovely.  She is like clothes that don't quite fit right, and as I go along I keep trying to alter my dress.  I think one day it will feel just right, and I will really be the mom I am meant to be. 

Or perhaps it is just a dream to think so, and motherhood is a constant learning process, where you always feel slightly off balance from where you want to be.

We're still on vacation, but when we return, oh the blogging I will do!  I miss it a lot. One thing I will say for sure, June makes friends wherever she goes.

She can say "go" and "eye" now.  And "burr" for bird.  

Besos desde Puerto Rico...


  1. Amy!

    Good to hear something from you!

    Hope the break has given you new strength to do all you need.

    It's cold here, and I envy you!

  2. I've been wondering how you are enjoying your getaway. We missed you at Marshall's birthday party, that's for sure. Happy New Year to you, Adam and June, and I'm looking forward to seeing you when you return.

  3. Oh, I can't wait to hear about your trip - we're trying to figure out where to go.

  4. What a great way to describe being a new mother. I feel exactly the same way. Just as I start to get comfortable the "dress" shifts and I have to figure it out all over again! And right - maybe it is the shifting and learning and changing that will eventually feel "right" and comfortable...

  5. Just Powers ~ it is nice to hear that someone can relate. Really nice in fact.

  6. I hate to always be the "old mom", or pretend to be an expert just because I've had more time pass with my children, but.....LOL......

    I never really realized how much I had to be fluid with my kids till they were teens. When the structure starts breaking down into goo, all that is comforting and regular.

    Now I have to wait to see the goo reform in their adult lives and with their kids.

    And rebuild my own "goo".


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